Sunday, June 17, 2012

Back on track

Well, I've been off the beaten path for the last couple of weeks.  I went off for our anniversary and have made a couple of half-hearted attempts to get back on, but have really just been slacking.  I haven't weighed myself or anything and I've continued to exercise, but I don't feel great...I feel bloated and sluggish, so it's time to get back on track.

In order to inspire myself, I put together a little list (on painting paper, with crayon...gotta work with what you've got!) and posted it at my desk in my room.  This is what it says (color and all):

June 18th - Monday
* Back on Whole30 (meets GAPS) (back to back till 31st birthday)
* Stay on!  Print cheat sheets, etc.
* Run 2-3 days per week, CrossFit 2-3 days per week
* Wake up early to exercise if that's what it takes
* No weighing till end of Whole30
* Ship out clothes to Lolo (NO GOING BACK!)
* Be strict - easy on the kombucha, easy on nuts/dried cranberries

Soft Goals
* Be at 2nd goal (no longer overweight, 145 lbs) by my birthday
* Be at goal by November trip (for looks, pics, and weight during events reasons)

* Finish B210K by end of July
* Start 13.1 training beginning of August
* Heart Walk/Run Sept. 22
* Color Me Rad Sept. 29
* Warrior Dash Oct. 27
* 2 Cities Half Marathon Nov. 4

I say "Whole30 meets GAPS" because I'm adding supplements from GAPS and doing more traditional/fermented foods like GAPS, but not actually doing GAPS.  Weighing during my Whole30 is something I have to make a conscious effort not to do...I actually have Travis hide the scale.  I set soft goals in addition to the events because I have some milestone types of things coming up and (yes, this is pure vanity) I would like to look good!  We'll be doing a ton of family pictures, etc.  Not only that, but I have a LOT of events starting the end of September, right around my birthday.  The less excess weight I'm carrying around, the better!  I'm planning on doing the Heart Run for time, to actually try to come in at a certain pace.  On the other hand, I'm trying to recruit some people from work to do this as their first 5k, in which case I would pace with them to keep together as a group.  We'll see how many people join up.

I listed the events because I want to keep them as a focus.  It's been so blasted hot that I've been doing CrossFit but not running for about a month now, which is purely unacceptable if I have a half-marathon in November!  So this next paycheck will buy me a used treadmill so I can run at home/at night/with a fan blowing on me...whatever works.  Meanwhile I'm going to attempt to switch my workout routine to the morning.  That will not come easy for me, as I am not a morning person by any stretch.  But I have to do what I have to do!  I need to register for these events so that I get that swift kick in the pants that comes along with putting money down on something. 

In all honesty, I've gotten complacent and I'm scared to death about gaining a bunch of weight, and I feel cruddy.  It's time.  Back on the wagon.

I have one more week in this term.  Let the cramming begin.

I got promoted to manager at work.  It's been a pleasure to work with the people I used to work with, even though several have moved on to other areas or hospitals.  But a core remains, and I'm looking forward to working more with them and getting to know the new crew.

Saturday, June 2, 2012

Time flies...

I can hardly believe how time seems to be flying these days.  I've had a few milestone things happen in the last month.

Firstly, it seems that this term is really flying!  There are only a couple of weeks left.  Next term is ALL midwifery courses, as opposed to this term (Primary Care and Pharmacology).  It'll be nice to kiss this term goodbye and get into the nitty gritty, although I do realize that courses get more intense as you move through.

Second, Travis and I celebrated our 10th wedding anniversary this month.  Wow.  Ten years...a decade.  We've moved 8 times in 3 different states, had three kids (and one miscarriage), worked many different jobs, and been through SO much change.  I think about the vows we made..."to have and to hold for better or for worse, for richer or for poorer, in sickness and in health, for as long as we both shall live"...I've learned the importance and the depth of these vows.  The last 10 years have been awesome.  Not always easy or happy or the way we planned, but they've been awesome because we've been through everything together and supported each other every step of the way.  I'm looking forward to more decades to come!

Third, my biggest baby finished another year of school.  I'm so proud of him!  He made "A" Honor Roll and also got awards for most work completed, scripture memory, and art.  He'll be going into his 3rd grade year in the fall.  My middle man will start kindergarten.  It hardly seems possible.

I'm running a 10k on Father's Day.  I'm scared because I don't feel ready for it.  I felt ready for the 5k, and had run the whole 5k before the day of the race so I knew I could do it.  I've gotten up to 4 miles, but that's still a far cry from the 6 miles of a 10k.  Susan signed me up, though, so I have to suck it up and do it, even if I have to walk part of the way.  Guess I need to start eating right again too so I'll lose more weight and recover better.  I've been off Whole30 for a few days for my anniversary, but I'm feeling it now in my workouts and really need to jump back on it.

CrossFit kicks my butt, but it's addictive.  How can this be?  I'm almost always the last to finish, and I have to do some modifications, but I'm getting muscles and it's awesome!  I look at the athletes around me and am in awe.  They inspire me, and I feel so comfortable there.  I don't feel like everyone is watching me...heck, we're all working too hard!  But at the same time they all cheer me on.  When they see that I'm dragging they cheer me on.  When I finish they congratulate me.  There's a camaraderie there that's just so cool, and the feel is so much different from a "Globo-Gym" type of set-up.  I'm hooked.

One of my friends asked that I be with her for her recent home birth.  I was honored and thrilled to be there, and even happier that the little man waited for a 3-day weekend to arrive!  We had a great time, chatting in early labor, putzing around...I helped with the kids (6 kids, 7 when I left!) and made dinner, cleaned, did some laundry, and tried to support her the best I knew how.  She and her husband know that I'm a birth junky and were so gracious letting me into their sacred birthing space.  It was her 7th home birth but her first water birth.  She loved it!  The birth went so smoothly (after a LONG prodromal labor) and I was just elated to have been a part of it!  I can't WAIT till I'm a midwife and get to be "with woman" all of the time!